Hey guys. I can barely see to type (hard to keep even my one good eye open due to pain), but I felt this important to share re: DesBio Bart, so please bear with me if I am a little repetitive or scatterbrained throughout this post. I know I didn't type an update for dose 2, but dose three feels like it deserves an as-it's-happening update.
So, tonight, I took my third dose of this round of the Bartonella series, which consisted of a few drops from vial 10.
(My second dose was 2 drops from vial 10, instead of vial 1, following the plan I explained in the video in my previous entry...I apparently got ahead of myself and let my perfectionistic, Type-AAA personality push me too far, convincing me that since I handled dose 2 better than dose 1, being drops from vial 10 instead of vial 1, I could stand to push the limits and up t a couple of drops on vial 10... NOPE.)
Y'all, when a treatment protocol is designed to start low and slow (as all are, it seems, when it comes to Lyme and friends), FOLLOW THE PLAN.
Ive made this mistake time and time again, and most of the time I'm good at sticking to the plan and pushing just enough, without pushing –too much–.
But today, I stupidly ramped up my dosage and took 4 drops (which I will NOT be doing for the next several doses–this may even force me to take longer between doses, at least for dose four, but when I resume, it'll be back at 2 drops to get back on my low and slow plan for hopeful success!).
The result? Not something I'm proud to share, picture-wise, but I'm also past the point of pride here. This is info for any who may ever come across it and need it in the future.
30-minutes after taking the 4 drops, I somehow pushed through the almost immediately increased joint pain to go try to brush my teeth, and when I looked up, I saw something I've coke to associate heavily with Bart and Bart herxes–severe torticollis/wry neck/jerky bacteria causing my neck to pull to the right and only be straightened with my hands, at which point I scream, because OW.
This is the beautiful sight that awaited me. Body squared up straight with the sink and with the camera, intentionally not raising one shoulder higher than the other and instead, letting my shoulders/neck do whatever they're doing. This is what I saw:
- I have behind the head earmuffs on 24/7 for the TN pain, so that's the black color you see under my hair/on my ears (tried to edit the contrast some so all the dark colors don't blend together)
- I don't even care that my hair is ratchet with its baby curls showing. "There was a little girl, that had a little curl..."
- I think I'll start adding a hand motion to the right side when this happens, because while it hurts like heck, the entire right side of my shoulder/neck/head, in addition to splitting open head pressure/pain, increased trigeminal nerve pain, and just general overall exacerbation of symptoms, it would at least be funny if I made it look like I was intentionally shrugging, with my elbow bent and my hand held as if I'm carrying a tray at a restaurant ("I don't know." *she shrugged* "this madness just happens with these illnesses.")... Maybe I'd be the only one laughing, but even still, gotta find humor where we can, right?
WISDOM FOR THE DAY:
Don't EVER let yourself get impatient (or go back to your impatient, wanting to force healing too quickly, ways) when it comes to your treatment protocol. Regardless of which route you take, regardless of whether your doctor treats aggressively or less so or conventionally or holistically or alternatively or integratively...regardless of what treatments you undergo, remember it's ALWAYS best to stick exactly to the plan (unless the plan is causing more harm than good, of course), and it's often best to keep "start low and slow" as a mantra, to avoid immediate unpleasant experiences like above.
Okay, again, I pushed myself too much typing all this out, and my hands and eyes are letting me know–BUT, also again, I wanted the info to be out there, and as the herxing from this dose has already started to set in, I have no idea if I'll even be able to pick up my phone or move tomorrow.
God bless, friends, I wish restful sleep for those of you who are here in the US as I'm posting this, and to all of you on a consistent basis.
This is the space where I plan on giving updates specifically related to the treatments I'm doing at any given time. Having this all on one page will ideally make it easier to locate treatment-related information without sifting through my archives, although if you're looking for a specific keyword or want to read about a specific protocol, the search function on the site can help with that!