Hey fellow warriors,
I shared this on my main blog page, but also thought it would be appropriate to include here, so it doesn't get lost if I, or anyone else, is looking for info on the topic in the future.
I know 2016 was a fairly quiet year for the site overall, and this treatment blog has been lacking in updates for much longer than that.
A few reasons this is the case:
- I fell behind and got intensely overwhelmed with anxiety every time I tried to think about having to play catch up with everything I've not yet shared. Rule number 1 of blogging: you don't have to share every detail. I'm trying to remind myself of that.
- Life, treatment, uncertainty, flares, herxing, planning next steps, trying to stay above water and keep my mind focused on God and His blessings amidst the trouble.
- Many days, I'm unable to type at all, much less use my laptop (leaving my phone/tablet as options, but arthritic hands cause problems there, too, and fatigue interferes with my ability to write, too.
- In the spirit of honesty, things are hard right now. Depression is creeping back in, along with many other mental and physical issues that have my mind in a perpetual state of anxiety, stress, and "fight of flight" thought-mode. But I'm not letting Satan win, notfonna happen. I have a CHH mixtape to record, mix, and release for free digital download–I know the emotional downs will pass, as will soke physical things, even if they seem to get worse before better, because it's all a process, and I have no room for hate in my heart if I truly want health...which includes hate toward any part of my circumstances or journey.
No, I'm not BFFs with my infections, diagnoses, and general state of dis-ease; I don't like any of them one bit. But I also won't give them the energy it takes to proclaim my hatred, or even hold it in my heart–they don't deserve any of my energy, except that which is directed towards treatments, detoxing, and other related things...for health.
So, here we are, facing many potential treatment decisions and in limbo in many ways, but one thing we do know is that we can no longer afford to keep bartonella on the back burner, hoping I'll just be well enough to handle the treatment and herxing one day.
The reason I didn't keep up with my treatment updates with the first attempt at the Deseret Biologicals (DesBio) Series Therapy for Bartonella (pictured above), which went from March-November 2015, is because the series–and subsequent herxing–was so taxing for my body, my neurological system, psychiatrically/psychologically, and hit me hard in nearly every other area of life, most of which I can't think to type out right now.
But, it was so rough that we never got past being able to take 1 drop/1x a week. One drop from one vial PER WEEK. If you've read mine, or others', posts on these homeopathic series therapies, you may remember they're designed to be taken one vial at a time, every theee says (with the exception of a few that are a few drops suspended in water to be consumed over an entire day, or other such routes, but this full vial every 3 days is the basic rule for many of them), so the box will last a month, and ideally you'll go through two the fire box vials 1-10, strongest to weakest, and then repeat this with a second month and a second box, in the opposite order, 10-1.
Since we know bartonella is my biggest issue as far as the debilitating symptoms it causes, and the sheer variety and severity and widespread nature of those symptoms and results/flares from the infections and herxes make it the most daunting infection to tackle...but as I said, we can no longer afford, in any sense of the word, to ignore this infection any longer, regardless of any herxing I may endure.
Number one goal for now: endure whatever it takes from now until the time comes, and whatever I may endure after, for however long it maybe, as long as I can be well-functioning and fulfill my Matron of Honor duties for all of my sister's wedding festivities this June–claiming that success in prayer, even though it seems a far off goal for now. I'm trusting God to deliver on that, because I refuse for these dis-eases, which are of Satan himself, to take away being able to support my sister and enjoy all aspects of watching and helping her as she marries the man of her dreams, her perfect soulmate.
For now, look for what I hope will be regular, or at least semi-tegular, updates on the treatment blog as I give this DesBio Bartonella treatment another go. It's in Your hands, Father, please grant me the blessings of peace, hope, and endurance–without you, I have none of them and none of anything.
God bless each and every one of you out there fighting, don't give up, even when things are hard and seem impossible.
There's always hope.
This is the space where I plan on giving updates specifically related to the treatments I'm doing at any given time. Having this all on one page will ideally make it easier to locate treatment-related information without sifting through my archives, although if you're looking for a specific keyword or want to read about a specific protocol, the search function on the site can help with that!