Written 1/15/2014 for my wonderful husband, Roger. Just now getting around to sharing it because it got lost among the many notes I have saved on my phone.
The blessing most dear
Every so often I look at a picture of you
and think, "how lucky I am"
Often a memory from years past
Laughter and life in our eyes we both wish could've lasted.
But God had other plans for us outside of what we knew back then--
We certainly didn't ask for this journey,
and often pray it will soon end.
Through trials of every possible kind,
mental, financial, physical, loss,
There's one thing that always holds true,
Together, these bridges we cross.
Some people assume hard things get easier
the more they show their face.
But we know different--they don't become easier--
they're just more commonplace.
But the commonplace things that not everyone sees,
are treasures I hold very dear.
How your eyes smile more than your mouth when you're looking at me--
In those moments, my worries are cleared.
And the silent way in which you go about your day
doing what has to be done--
You always make time to say to me
something purely intended for fun.
The way you talk to our cats and dog,
not realizing I'm listening in--
Even in little actions like this,
I'm reminded that daily I win.
I win because even through all the struggles
of the seemingly immeasurable kind,
We're traveling this journey of life hand-in-hand,
and I'm so glad you chose to take mine.
No one else could I imagine beside me
each and every day.
And I hope there have also been times when I have
helped you find your way.
This thing we signed up for, there's no passing Go
to quickly skip over the bad.
But once we're victorious over these battles,
just think of the stories we'll have!
And someday down the road, could be later or sooner,
whenever God deems it fit--
There's no doubt in my mind we will live and embrace
all the fun and excitement we've missed!
Because me being sick doesn't define our lives,
even though it oft feels that way.
But we will get the life we once had back again--
I truly can't wait for that day!
The thing I most want to say to you, though,
the reason I've written this here,
is that in the middle of what looks a mess,
God makes my every blessing clear--
And the best of the best of all of the blessings is knowing you are with me here.
And that's the one blessing of all of the blessings I will always hold most dear.
Copyright Becca Doss 2014
I intend to eventually gather my poems (old and new, Lyme-related and non-Lyme-related, but all from my heart and inspired by my life experiences) and include them here, where they can be read. Stay tuned!