I refuse to let 2017 go by and be as sparse a year for blogging as 2016 was. It will be an interesting adventure, because my cognitive issues surrounding the act of writing are flaring sinificantly (word recall problems, saying or typing the conpletely wrong/opposite thing of what I intend, typing difficulties in the action itself, inability to keep a train of thought going very well...you gettge oicture), but hopefully also a fun journey.
I've had a few changes occur/I've decided to change a few things since my post last month where I mentioned restarting the DesBio Bartonella Series Therapy. I'm going to hit the most important in bullet points below, just so I don't fall completely behind in my updates.
I hope to write an in-depth post sometime in the near future about exactly why we made the decision to change direction with treatment for now, but since I can't type it all out at this moment, here is my current treatment plan:
STOPPED – DesBio Series Therapy
–I'm a firm believer in these products, so I want to make sure you know this is NOT because I don't believe in them; I think they're revolutionary for many in the world we inhabit in 2017, and I've seen success with them already, but we decided to hold off on the DesBio therapies for a while to try something else (again, sorry I can't give a full explanation now, but it's important for me to let you know I still support these series therapies wholeheartedly–we just needed to go a different direction for my body, at this moment in time, and we are all different.).
STARTED – Cowden Protocol/Cowden Support Program
- Further insight into why we are going this route right now will be included in the aforementioned "overall explanation" post, but in short: through prayer, an open mind, and many more things, this is where I've been led time and again, and there's no better time for me to try something I haven't yet tried than right now.
*Today marks day 12 for me of the 6-9 month protocol (repeat certain months as needed, slow dosages as needed), and I hope to post on the treatment blog about my experiences with Cowden as I go along, just as soon as I can get my bearings and organize all my thoughts. I will say this: I'm feeling very hopeful about it.
STARTING/TRANSITIONING – Raw Vegan diet (but still staying within the guidelines of the Lyme diet and my personal intolerances/sensitivities)
I'll just say it now: I know this is controversial.
Please, if you don't agree this approach is appropriate for fighting these illnesses, if you think it's a bad/wrong/ill-advised decision, please refrain from being rude about it. Here's the thing: we are ALL different in almost every way when it comes to the combinations of treatments/therapies that work for our bodies–I'm NOT saying this is good or bad for anyone or everyone, I'm saying:
Hey, I've let my body try to heal itself by following this strict diet and that strict diet and this anti-[insert dis-ease] diet and that other [insert anti-disease diet], but I haven't yet given going completely raw and plant based a try. I've gone completely plant based, but not completely raw. I think I'm going to at least give this a try for two months and see how I feel during/after/at the 2-month mark. I'll confidently say this much for now, even though I'm still transitioning to completely raw, I am excited and enthusiastic about this experiment for better health (all of this is an experiment, all the time, for all of us, anyway, why wouldn't I try something I haven't yet tried but that might actually be helpful?!): thus far, it's helped the disordered thoughts I sometimes-more-than-others still have around food, eating, weight, and size, and has reminded me in grand measure of the greatness that is nourishment, health, love, life, recovery, and freedom. So while I'm not saying it's "cured" the disordered parts that still exist, I'm saying it's a major step in the right direction, and these steps will keep adding up over time.
Even on my worst pain days now, one of which today non-coincidentally is, my mindset is better overall (I wanted to push through the worst trigeminal nerve pain flare I've had in over a year, which I'm experiencing as I type this, and have been experiencing for about 18 hours, to prove to myself I could, even though it costs me several spoons). Even on these debilitating pain days, I'm better able to keep my mind focused on the hope. On the promise of healing. On the promised restoration of life I know is coming, in whatever time God knows is right, for me and for you, if we just keep fighting and hanging in there–however that looks for each of us. Even on my hardest days, I claim right now: I refuse to ignore the inherent blessing of being ALIVE, and the privilege of being able to continue searching for, and utilizing, treatment methods in an effort to regain my life.
As per, this was longer than I thought it would be. I apologize if it's repetitive in parts, and I ask you to please excuse any typos–if they interfere with understanding, please leave a comment and I'll try to explain what I mean, but I can't currently go back through and proofread–my fingers are literally giving out wth every character I'm typing at this point.
This world needs you.