"Lyme Soldiers" -- Latest adventures in Awareness rap adaptation

It was my hope to record this song and be able to have a version I deemed worthy of posting publicly for awareness month in May, but that didn't happen. I'm still not 100% satisfied with how this one turned out, but it's the best I've been able to bet so far, and there's no way of telling when (or if) I'll be able to do a next-level legit recording in the near future.

So I wanted to share this here with you all--this is the second rap I've recorded re: Lyme awareness (I've written several more, but they're not quite worthy of recording yet), and if you enjoyed my track from last year "Without Lyme," (check it out in the sidebar if you want) I think you'll like this one, as well...and the beat should be another familiar borrowed beat to a lot of you. (Credit to my good friend Marshlla for the beat😉).

Lyrics will follow track.

https://soundcloud.com/lymeislame/lyme-soldiers-lyme-awareness-1

Lyme Soldiers

Lyrics:

Borrowed hook:

Step by step, heart by heart, left right left

We all fall down, like toy soldiers

But by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle rages on for toy soldiers

Verse 1:

I'm supposed to be the kind of person that's always smiling

And most of the time I'll keep that up for a while, but then

All of this stuff it just keeps piling inside

And the trials seem too hard to ride out to the finish line

So I cry, but no one hears me 'cause I've gotten so good

At hiding these tears, this anger, after all isn't that what I should

Do? Since I talk about trustin his plan?

Constantly sayin I can handle all these things comin

At me from all directions,

Because I've got the Man on my team and I know He's on the bench beside me holding my hand, well I've

Got a truth to share that might not be easy to take

Just because in my heart I know He's set the date for my healing,

It don't mean I can escape this inherent human state of feeling so desperate

Sometimes it feels like I'm stuck going round and round in a revolving gate

I'm treadin water but my daggone lifeboat it just won't inflate

And I'm spendin too much time stressin about my life

And not just for myself but for all those who stand beside me

But honestly there's not a single thing to do about it right now,

So I'll just keep holding on, let this thing play out

Forget the roller coaster, this life is like a card game

And the deck's been stacked for sure but it's sure not stacked in your name

So just take your place at the table, let all these things be dealt to you

And don't hide those emotions, they are meant to be felt

Go ahead and take off that mask, hard as it may seem,

Drop the "I'm fine" facade 'cause if you're waiting and willing for

Things to go your way you gotta let people inside,

I know it's scary but hey, guess what, that's part of life

Repeat hook

Verse 2;

There used to be a time when I could just live my life

I had so much fun as a child, but then again when I

Started getting older, there started being some pain

More kinds than I can count, and that's when I became

Someone I didn't recognize when I looked into my mirror

But it's gone on for so long that that's no longer neither here nor

There. The mirror's not important because all it shows is the outside and my words are more important to me I swear

I've got so much time on my hands call me Salvador Dali

'Cause it's all melting away, and I'm just lying here watching

All these days pass by and sometimes I start to think

Why is all of this going on? Why's it happening to me?

But then I realize that I don't control my life

No matter how hard I try I just keep getting reminded

That this journey, it's not in my hands, it's not my job

To fix myself or heal myself, but feeling at a loss

And not being able to dictate how things go

Is even more frustrating than a recovery this slow

I'll admit it, I've never really been a patient person

And if patience is a virtue I'd rather not be virtuous

Waiting is just something that don't come easy to me

Ask anyone that knows me and I betcha they'd all agree

But then again, why would I expect anything else?

Part of living this life is knowin when to ask for help and support

Especially when I am so worn out from all this,

My body's damaged but so's my brain and so's my spirit

I've been strong for so long but I've finally reached my limit

And it's takin everything I've got to not just through the towel in.

'Cause sometimes that's all I feel like doin' but God's brought me so far already it be selfish to up and call it quits

So, Lord, I'm asking please, though I can't get down on my knees,

If it's not time to take this pain from me, just give me the strength

And the willpower I need to keep fighting this fight

With the knowledge that one day you will perfect my sight

And I'll see that all of these struggles that they all had a purpose

So please just sustain me till that day I'll see it all was worth it.

Repeat hook

Thanks for reading/listening,

God bless,

Becca